This is my first prompt blog post so forgive me if it doesn’t make much sense. If I think about it, nothing really makes sense right now. I had imagined a straight course for myself, saw it clearly in front of me. I made present decisions with an eye focused on the future. It was the first time for me. I dreamed and believed. Then quite suddenly my chance for my ideal future was removed. I didn’t see it at first. When it started to come clearly into my view I was in denial. I could not possibly have been wrong again. I resisted. I fought back violently. I drank.
Then, almost as suddenly, I realized that it was going to be ok. Not only am I going to be ok, I believe, whole heartedly that I am going to be happy. Everything I’ve wanted is right within my grasp, quite literally at times. And each day that goes by I am less and less frightened of moving in that different direction.
Do not mistake my current optimism for an unbridled charge towards the future. Quite the contrary, I intend to take every step slowly, calculated, and with the all the thought and care that will make each decision one that is certain to last.
So maybe everything makes sense right now.
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