This morning I talked about how I didn't have anyone in my life that understood me. That he wasn't supportive or encouraging. Captain Buzzkill is humorous but it hurts. I said he had no example of how to be sensitive to a spouse. I told him my friend knew all the right things to say. I told him I'd take the movie for the extra 2 months. But I was biased because it's something I'd love to do and that I'm jealous of his career. Then I said that we were such different people. That's actually when I transitioned into not understanding me.
I talked a lot. I got it all off of my chest. I thought I felt relieved.
But now I have feelings of dread and guilt. His greatest fear is that he's not going to be enough for me, be too boring, and I'm going to fall in love with someone else. And there I went spouting out rubbish that probably seemed to confirm his fears.
Did I help our relationship by being honest or hurt it?
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