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Saturday, August 4, 2012

I'll never be a writer


On Monday night I took a 300er and a 300 rather than a 150. I was feeling desperate. Tuesday I woke up from a good dream. These are so rare. I was happily participating in the Olympics and so was K. It was like waking up being able to breath for the first time. The day got better when I found out that I wasn’t a drunken fuck-up on Saturday night even though I still don’t remember 6 hours. Add in some good news that my trainer can teach me to swim as soon as I get a bathing suit and I was on my way to a good day by 11a. Much of the rest of the day was spent with my sister and that completed it. I was at a perfect 5.

Today is Wednesday, day 2 of taking 300x2, day 2 of good dreams, and I’m tipping a little towards 6 right now. Please don’t think I’m implying that my self-adjustment to my medication is what is causing this. I know that it takes time for medication change to be seen in moods. Just trying to record the facts as well as I can in a rambling narrative that no one reads.

Tipping into 6 has started my mind on all of the projects that

(I get distracted and don’t even finish a sentence and forget to post)

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