There are a lot of important issues to think about this week and I just don’t seem to be in the right mindset. I’m exhausted from traveling this weekend and my sleep is all off kilter. My diet has been whatever I feel like eating whenever I feel like eating it. Watching me climb back up to my heaviest hasn’t even stopped me. The added weight makes me feel ugly and weak and although I’m craving the gym, it seems that the time to get there has disappeared. It took with it the time to create and dream and snuggle and clean.
Wedding planning has gotten better ever since we decided to get off of our asses and look around rather than just debating everything in a vacuum of information. We’ve looked at 3 very different venues and they all have pluses and minuses. Time to pull out the big white board!
Work has calmed down to a state of quiet acceptance. I’m trying to focus on doing my job the best I can. I’d be able to focus on that much more if the option of going back to my last job hadn’t presented itself. Now I’m constantly analyzing what is the better decision and where my future is headed.
These two biggies have enough thoughts chasing each other around my head that there’s hardly any room for the work I need to be doing today or the laundry or cleaning or projects of any kind. I can’t relax and when I talk about my issues they come out so jumbled that it’s frustrating for anyone who has to listen to me.
Oh and while I’m at it. I’m tired and fat.
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