23 red items on my to-do list. Red mean’s they’re overdue by my own deadline system. Yet I distract myself like everyone else does with mindless news on the internet or sometimes, way too long looking at the site Etsy.com. It’s a marketplace for handmade items and I’m going through a phase where I love to waste time looking at products and figuring out how they’re made and if I can make them myself. I get lost in day dreams of quitting my job and staying home in my big 3 floor house with a sunny yard and crafting all day. I’d never get distracted then except maybe by a kid or two. I’d be doing something I’m passionate about.
I’m envious of people who have found their passion and I wonder what happened to mine. Have I ever had it? I’ve been doing technical theater since I was 11. It’s the only world I’ve ever lived in. But as much as I’ve immersed myself in it, I find my interest lacking. I’m not reading plays in my spare time, or researching new technology, or posting on message boards to connect with my fellow techies. Isn’t that what passion is? Hell, sometimes I hate my job.
So in my almost 30 years, I’ve tried a lot of different crafts albeit mostly for short periods of time. There’s been dozens of phases and they’ve never stopped. I keep thinking that the one time I try something I’m going to fall in love with it! Find my passion!
Is it like falling in love? Because no one’s figured that out. Take my example. It took me 3 months of fighting it tooth and nail before I admitted that I was in a kind of love I’d never found before.
So here I am staring at the red number 23 (which is my favorite number). My rule has always been: You can finally do fun things when your to-do list is totally done and you’re all caught up. I’ve been saying that to myself for years and this Cinderella never seems to get to go to the ball.
Focus more, finish work quickly, play, find passion, make it your work.
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