Rinse and repeat

We’re back from Vegas. I suppose I’ve been meaning to open up this document and pound out some thoughts for awhile now but life has been busy. It still is. It’s the time of year when my task lists exceed the time in the day. So much needs to be done that I don’t know where to start. My focus suffers and so does my productivity. Before we left for the trip I was becoming really sleepy every day. Sleepy to the point of nodding off multiple times a day. I think it was the stress shutting my body down.

It’s now clear that I am unhappy at work. This is truly disheartening because I’ve invested so much in this job and this career path. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I’d found a place that respected me that I could stay for a good number of years. Heartbreakingly this job has followed the script of my previous jobs and it’s hard not to consider myself the greatest factor. My job isn’t understood, I’m not appreciated or listened to, I don’t believe in the direction they’re going and there’s a personality who is against me and makes my daily life a living hell when I have to interact with him. Story of my life. I get angry when I draw those parallels. There’s so much in this world and I’m doomed to repeat the demise of a job every couple years? What will break the cycle?

Instead of debating this any more I’m going to try to focus on the next couple weeks of the holiday. I’m going to try to remain focused and in motion for the whole day with a possible nap in the middle. Hey, we didn’t get in until 2a!